I have no arms today.

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Before I knew they were monkeys, they looked like this.

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I love you like a bandage
Like a blood transfusion
Like morphine
no
Heroine
Ecstasy

I love you like the pain that tells me I'm still alive

I love you like murder
Like red on the floor
Rape
Violence

Umbrella

When I wouldn't eat...

When I wouldn't eat
They sent me to bed without supper

When I wouldn't sleep
There were chores at dawn

When I wouldn't work
They sent me to my room

…Where I sulked
So infinitely mistreated

Love Your Monsters

I'll be busy again this week

next week

for the next several years

unfocused

just doing things

anything

I can

to escape

but there is no escape

from myself

but the one I can't let myself take

always there

in the back of my mind

the unacceptable escape

the only escape

the ultimate failure

admission of weakness

game over

you lose

Must

Love

Self

Or

Die

Why should it be so hard? I'm a wonderful person.

cry it out

cry it out

just cry

sob yourself to exhaustion

you'll still be there at the end

it only feels like dying

it's not

it's just water

and salt

it shrinks the monsters